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In Times of Despair

by Vann Papa

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1.
Animosity 04:29
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In search for wisdom While in dismay I carry this burden Of your longing pain In search for salvation Given your errors Enter the horrors Of the real world Animosity in my heart And my soul As it wrenches I never forget Seeking closure But its nowhere to be found The grasp of reality in your throat The feelings heavily torn Seeking vengeance Instead of good riddance Playing with the pain As i long for you in the rain Animosity in my heart And my soul As it wrenches I never forget Trust was all we needed But you threw that all away Prolong together Or leave you behind You know what you have done Repent to all your sins I will never forgive you You will never regain my trust I will never forget you And the pain that you caused No matter the cost I will erase you from my heart
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Sorrowful Winter 04:07
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My uncertainty has blinded my clarity Delusions a fog To neutralize my brain From all of the pain Withered pain Is what i feel Long lost are the days Of joy and contentment Sorrowful winter As i see your bedroom empty I live with this grief In time it grew to regret My child Long before you were born My darkness was bound to be bestowed on to you
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A Solemn Night - Reimagined 04:01
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Endless greif Endless regret Endless guilt Endless pain I have found peace in solitude In this solemn night I miss your cold embrace As the weather warms Your skin fades away Ashes to dust Your life goes away Freedom is a curse When you know you shouldn't be free
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Open Wounds 04:11
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Facing your demons Descending depths of hell You know what youve done It seems to tell Open your wounds See through your failures What will you do? Life is just as threatening Even so now you know Speak to me now Before your life descends Face the reality Theres no need to hide away End this sorrow What will you do?
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Nocturnal Forest 03:32
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Insomnia 06:01
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Im losing so much sleep Forfeit all ambition The time i seek To redeem all past mistakes Nocturnal hours Is the time i lay in my bed Doing nothing but thinking About my past regrets No motivation at all My body isn't responding Left alone with all my thoughts Imprisoned in repeat I long for the days When its just not myself Blank faced beside my window Left with all my sorrow Lost all my hope To start a new day Cause all i feel is dismay Within all this disarray My insomnia worsens day by day
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Peace of Mind 03:21
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Railroad tracks i walk As i seek peace of mind I Try to forget the day that you died So long and goodbye Hallucinations Delusional thoughts Your warmth in this cold By the time we get older Time is no longer On our side No Peace of mind Wander the forest As i seek closure From the past That would not last Chorus of sighs As i remember your pretty eyes But once you were born You were gone the next day
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Shatter 05:36
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Madelyn 04:15
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I need to find a way To be certain of whose to blame Searching for wisdom While in dismay Drowned within sorrow Like there's no tomorrow Drained by the thought That you still may be here Winter has passed And i still long for salvation Months have gone by And you're still not here Nocturnal forest Thats where we will meet In autumn sunrise I hope to see you there Oh what could've been As many years I've longed to raise you Now your just in my restless dreams What have I done to deserve this Maybe in another world I had enough time to be with you Not even a full day And you have been laid to rest I am full of anger But i cannot linger All the blame i placed To myself and your mother As it is out our of control
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In Times of Despair 11:22
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The Conceptual Story:

A father and a mother once lived in a town called Nocturnal Forest. And in winter they were about to deliver their kid named Madelyn. It was all going well until the next day she immediately died and mother got really sick. The dad always wanted a daughter and when he finally got it, it was taken away from him. And then through grievance he got very delusional, every female figure in his house he pretended it was Madelyn, or what could’ve been. He frequently blamed his wife despite being sick he did not care because he believes its her fault. He also constantly blamed himself for the multiple crimes he has committed throughout his life and sees it as if it’s God’s punishment for taking their daughter away. Through that, through so much fighting and anger, he unconsciously murdered his own wife, glassed her head too hard with a whiskey bottle and through impact it drove her head onto the corner of the staircase handle. With deep regret of his actions, he knew this wasn’t what Madelyn would have wanted. In the end, he was in so much despair that he took his own life as well. Hung himself on a small bridge on top of a stream of water.

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released February 5, 2024

Story, Music, Production, Lyrics, Instrumentation, Mixing & Mastering by: Vann Papa

Artwork by: Mathieu Ouellet & Vann Papa

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I am a 19-year-old multi-instrumentalist and producer. My genres have a wide span from progressive metal to ambient electronic music.

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